when will i get more than a hello in passing, more than the sweet utterance of my name...
you call me by name, but yet you walk away...if you knew how i desire you would you still place that foot infront of the other and disapear with my heart?
would you look into my eyes to find the truth for yourself.....
i always fall for the one i know the least about, the one i can never touch, the one i push away...the one and only one i dont know what to say to...
why do i like you? why do i think of you when my mind goes blank...i dont even know you.
sense takes over and puts me and my desires in place...im calm cool and collective...
and all you have to do is say my name.
the smallest gesture, though meaningless to most means the world to me.
If you knew me, if you knew what i was like...each oddity, each silly little dream, each and every quirk. would you treasure them as precious jewels. would you smile at my awkward manerism and kiss my lips. or would you move away, keep my at arms length. laugh and tell your friends about the strange girl who had a heart for you...you'd kiss her lips .... who ever "her" is.
i want you...but i don't know how to get you, so i sit, i wait, i look at the ground, staring into the cracks of the pavement and not into your eyes of ocean blue.
it would not take much to make me yours...i am so eager to love you..
i wamt you and i now its immature...but i've been mature for too long...
i just want to love, first i would like to know you, but all things in time..i remind myself...but time keeps rolling and i keep getting passed by...
i dont want to sit anymore,
i dont want to hind my eyes anymore.
i want to love!
why cant i love you?
and why wouldn't you love me in return?
God so many people have what they want, they go out and get it, and yes sometimes its not the best for them, but i've been here, been faithful, not perfect, not the best solider, but still im here...and i just want to know love, to give love, and to someone ...well why not him..forever.. or for now...
how will i ever know the power and potentail of love if i dont attemprit?
grant my greatest heart's desire..and if it fails, i can handle it..i'll write about it...let me live....i need to live, i need to love, try to be, i can no longer sitting on my pretty little doll self...please let me at least try, give me this....your love is asking you this....let me find joy in such a relationship...let it last, but if it must fade, let it, and bring me out better, bring me out a new...i plead of you left me find for myself, let me know, be with me in it always, i would never tred in these waters with out you, thats why im still here, but allow me to go, bring him in close.....and lets fall.
