why do i talk to you? it cant be healthy.....
our convorsation never gets deeper than casual flirtly jesting, and yet you say you love me.
i've tried to invest interest in you as a person but you always seem elusive in answering my inquiries. what is it that you want from me?
i am emoutionally attached to you, a foul up on my part, i really rather not be. we share no interests, or at least to my understanding because you never share those things with me, even with all this you are the one who reaches out to me, lights my phone up, expresses desire to see me, why? i feel you dont even know me...do you even know my dreams, do you know my values, do you even care?
you just began IMing right now, and because i dont know, i guess im weak, i fall back into the routine. whats wrong with me?
for awhile i did real good, you didnt exist and i was fine.
how do i rid myself of you?
you do more damage than you do good....
you know im so freaking dumb, i know dont love me, why am i wasting my time...lol
i hate being a girl sometimes, it sometimes forces me to betray my good sense for emoutional validation uggh.
im the lucky one to recognize my foolishness, that way i can regulate it.

solution: just stop......
stop giving you what you need to play me
stop entertaing your " i love you"s
stop being ruled by the effect of my solitary state

and if you do still require my attention you must work harder dear or give up...
i gotta stop sitting there while run circles around me
instead im gonna run! you gotta chase me, chase me or disapear into the fading distance...

haha you were never really good at catching me, so good luck!